Aye Dil-e-Nadaan

Kahan socha tha ke khamoshi yon goonj uthegi…aur ye goonj door door tak sunaii di..sab hairaan reh gaye…magar ek shaks is gunj may dabi sargoshi sun raha tha…samajh raha tha us mutlaashi ki beqarari ko…waqt ki kami ke sabab uski jaldbazion se serzad hoti nadanion ko rok hi tou na saka…aakhir rok bhi kaise sakta tha..usey ghum-e-dauran may uljha diya gaya tha…ye talaash na jaane kya kya maang rahi thi…Aakhir vo hua jo kaatib-e-taqdeer ne likh diya tha….Baharam ko tutne ki saza mili….yaqeen ko doobne ki saza mili…shauq ko ghum ki saza mili…talab ko firaq ki dua mili…phir bhi carvan-e-dil badhta raha….

Humaira ko sab khwab sa lag raha tha..kya waqi ye hogaya….Aaj uska nikah ek aisi hasti ke saath horaha tha jo her mohabbat karne waale dil ka khwab thi..usey apni khushqismati per naaz tha…Allah ! kya ye sach hai…haan ye sach hai…ye wahi hain jinki tamanna dil ne pehli nazar may ki thi… aur aaj ki is shaadmaani may donon ki dua shaamil thi…

Humaira ek mamuli shakl-o-surat ki munhani si surkh-o-sufed ladki thi..agar usme kuch khaas tha tha uski sachai,uski kamgo tabiyet, uski insaf-pasand fitrat..per usey ajib ghar mila..ajib fitrat ke log miley apnon ki shakal may..jo kaahil they …yehin se her ghalathi ki ibtida hoti hai…bekaar dimagh sust jism kisi ko bhala kya detey…haan zubaan apne hone ka sahi estemal kar rahi thi…aam insani fitrat hamesha dusron may buraian dhundne may waqt guzarti hai per apni khamion per uski nazar nahi jaati….bas in sab ke aadi hogaye they uske kaan..kuch asar tou hona hi tha…jub admi apne mahol may khud ko ajnabi paata hai tab uski tanhaii uski sochon ko hawa dene lagti hai....khayaal baghawat per uksaane lagte hain…inqilab kabhi yon bhi aata hai zindgi may….ke pure kunbey ki zindgi badal kar rakh deta hai…

Ek din Humaira apne gharwalon ke saath safar per thi..wahaan huii thi uski mulaqat sayeed se..usne apni bhaabi se aksar unka zikr sua tha..bhaabi goya sayeed ka payaam hogayen…magar jub pehli baar vo sayeed se mili phir vo is duniya ki nahi rahi…kuch ajib kaifiyet taari huii usper…wapsi ka safar badi khamoshi se kata tha…..

Sayeed ek aalanasb aur nek insaan they..unka silsila khaas tha…magar unki duniyawi zindgi saada thi…jahaan vo khud se zayada dusron ke liye haazir raha kartey….khuda ke bande jub mushkilon may hote hain tou khuda unki madad apne nek bandon ke zariye karta hai…aur un nek bandon ki khususiyet yehi hoti hai ke vo begharz hote hain…vo apna daman saaf rakhtey hain…taaki daman thaamne waalon ke dil saaf hojaayen…ye hidayet ka silsila hota hai..khuda behter karsaaz hai..apne bandon ki falaah ki khatir uski hikmaten zahur pazeer hoti hain..

Uske baad ki gini chuni mulaqaton may najaane kaunse ahad-o-paimaan huye…ke ekdin achanak bilkul filmi andaz may saara haal rubaru rakha usne…gharwalon ko sakta hogaya…bhabi hairaan theen…sayeed jaisi hasti ke liye ladkion ki koi kami nahi thi…per unki pasand Humaira hi kyon? Ache log nek dil ka hi intikhab karte hain..aur is tarha Humaira khaas hogaii..hazar mukhalifaton ke bawajud uske gharwale majbur hogaye…unhen khasta haal sayeed se rishta kahan pasand tha..unhon ne sayed ka baaten hi nahi dekha..uski shaksiyet ko jaana hi nahi…uski haisiyet nahi pehchaani…unhen sayeed ki duniya nazar hi nahi aai…kyonki vo apni duniya dekh rahey they…

Magar sayeed ne mukhalifaton ki perwa nahi ki..apne iradey aur waadey ko efa karne ki khatir bilkul unki duniya ke andaz may apni zindgi ka izhar kiya….

Koi kahaan ghaur-o-fikr ke marahil se guzarna chahta hai..khuda ki khushi ko moqadar samjhe ye tou khaas logon ka khaasa hai…unhon ne sayeed ki bulandion ko pehchana hi nahi…baghair khushi ke ye khushi puri huii…

Ye khubsurat ghadi Humaira ki zindgi ko muatar kar gaii…uske abdi sakun ki ibtidaii marahal kasmakash se guzrey zarur..per sayeed ka saath in sab se balaa-tar tha….

Humaira rukhsat hokar Sayeed ke ghar aagaii…Sayeed shaakir they..Humaira ke liye ye duniya nai thi..ye saada zindgi naii thi…usne zaruraton ko mohabbaton may shaamil kar ke khud ko uljha liya…Aurat jub apne maike se nikal kar sasural chalti hai tab vo ek naya rang apnane ko khud ko tayaar karti hai…mohabbat shauhar ki itni taqatwar hoti hai ke ye kaam uske liye sahal hojaata hai…koii kami giran nahi guzarti…lamhon ka afsos bhi lamhon may zaayel hojaata hai….per Humaira ke saath aisa nahi hua…uski zaruraten shikayeten ban gayeen..uski mohabbat kamzor pad gaii…usne waqi mohabbat samjhi hi nahi…uski nek fitrat ka takhaza kuch aur tha…uski saadadili inki aadi hosakti thi…vo sayeed ki saadgi may chupi niyamaton se anjaan jot hi…

Kaii roz kasmakash may guzarne ke baaad ekdin chupke se apne walidain ke hamraah chali gaii…sayeed ko hairaan chod kar…per sayeed ko apna wada yaad tha…kabhi saath na chodne ka….vo apne wade per qayam rahe…aur Humaira ki wapsi ka intizaar karne lagey….

Khuda ne apne nek bandon ko sada azmaaya…unse judne waali hastion per apna saaya-e-remath banaaye rakha….Ab ye usi ko khabar thi ke kisi dil ko vo kub hidayet bakhshega….kub perde girayega….Sayeed ka intizaar jaari hai..aur Humera ki khamoshi bhi…

Bharam

Aurat hamesha se hi koi na koi bharam ke sahaare umr guzarti aai hai..aaj bhi..kal bhi…aage bhi…uski mohabbaton ko fareb ka sahara jo darkaar hota hai..so diye jaati hai liye jaati hai..khwab aur haqeeqaton ke beech kaii rishton se guzar kar apni hasti hi bhul jaati hai..phir bhi uski ummid uski aas nahi tut-ti…uski roshan aankhon may hamesha ek talaash rehti hai..kahin tou kisi ek rishte may hi sahi kaash usey apna aap mil jaaye..kahin vo khud ko nazar aaye…uski mohabbat ka aks paale…per hamesha tou ye nahi hota…bhalawe hi milte hain usey..uska kamzor sa dil isi per iktifa karta hua apni dhadkanen khota chala jaata hai…dhadkanen bhi tou quwaten maangti hain…aur vo quwaten tou mohabbaton ki hi dane hoti hain…gar vo nahi ye bhi nahi…Aahista Aahista saare yaqeen saare bharam chut-te jaate hain…haqeeqat se mulaqat us waqt hoti hai jub in bharam ka saath zaruri hojaata hai…Ye zarb-e-kaari bhi sah jaati hai ye kamzor si Aurat….uske nazuk kaandhon per khuda ne soch samjh kar hi rishton ka bhaar rakha….o jaanta hai laakh kamzor sahi,uski mohabbat qawi hai..uska ezaaz hai ye, hazaron mushkilon may bhi apni baahen waa kiye apnon ka khairmoqadam karti huii pighalti huii, moam si aurat usine tou bade maan se banaii thi…aur khud ko uski misl kaha…”.Mai 70 hazaar maaon ki mohabbat rakhta hun.”

Aamina ne apne haathon ko ghaur se dekha…ab inme derd hone laga tha..kuch der tak koi cheez thaame rakhte huye ye sunn hone lagey they…yehaan tak ke ye numbness purey badan may saraaiyet karne lagi thi….tab vo ghabra ke socha karti.” Ya ilaahi kahin mai munjamid na hojaaun…meri hararaten jo meri zindgi ki zamanath hain meri mohabbaton hi ke dam se hain..kahin ye gosht post se bana dil kahin pathar ke tukde may na tabdil hojaaye….vo dil jo kal talak anginnat tajrubon ka gawah tha…anek jazbon se bhara nerm-o-gudaz tha…aaj vo khud ka hi shikaar hogaya..” Aamina ki inhi sochon ne uski khamosh nigahon se sawaal bhi noch liye…Aakhir kyon?

Duniya jis andaz may her daur se guzarti hai ab bhi guzarti rahi..farq sirf itna tha ke Amina ne Duniya ke saath dhadkne se inkaar kar diya tha…vo apni duniya may gum rehna chahti thi.jahaan koi takrar nahi thi…na koi karobar tha…agar tha tou haseen khahishon ka abshaar tha….jo kabhi puri hi na hosakeen….usne apni dhaknon ko unke benaam naghmon ko raqam karna shuru kar diya….yehin se uske zawaal ki ibitda huii…

Is dorangi Duniya ke satrangi fareb usey kha gaye….jahaan bhi koi deewanapan nazar aaya, jahaan bhi nadaan mila, usey tar niwala bana lene ko tayaar they sharer anaasar…yehi is taraqi-yafta Duniya ki naii tarraqi thi….ek deewane ko mazeed deewana karna….so vo bhi deewani hogaii…anjaane may…jaane bujhey raaston may kho gaii…

Aamina aaj bhi in zakhmon ki laaj rakhna chahti thi…inhen honton per muskuruahat ki tarha saja liya karti..apni madham dhadkanon se jadojahad karti….apne bojhal kaandhon ki himmaten jutaati…apne muzmahal qadmon ko bahalaati….’ Tumhen abhi chalna hai…apne ferz nibhaane hain..tumhaari abhi zarurat hai…” bas khuda ko us per taras aajaata…vo payaam ban jaata..hauslon may jhalak uth-ta..Meri sab se kamzor takhlikh per mera khaas karam hamesha hai ..tabhi tou ye merkey fatah kar leti hai….khatakar ko muaf karne ka hausla rakhti hai….khudgharz rishton ko apni begharz mohabbat ka sahara deti hai…her haal may apna karam kiye jati hai…uski mohabbaton may koi utaar chadau nahi aata….vo aakhiri saans tak khud ko khuda ke karam ka hissa banaaye rakhti hai khuda hi ke sahaare…